PASSION: Wow! What a feeling.

I was asked years ago why I wasn't passionate about my job.

Why wasn't I out there learning everything I could about it,

taking seminars and classes, going to network functions and

pouring every ounce of my being into it?

The answer was easy. My job is just that...a job. I love what

I do and enjoy the wonderful people I get to work with, but at

the end of the day it is a J-O-B. It pays the bills and I have

been told I'm good at what I do, but I never felt a passion

for it.

This got me thinking about what I was passionate about.

And sad to say, I came up empty handed. Some people

scoffed and said what about your son? To which I say,

Ughhh. I would never think of my feelings toward my child

as passionate because that just seems wrong. Instead,

I would say I have a never ending, unconditional, lay

down my life, all encompassing love for my child. This has

always trumped any feelings otherwise.

But PASSION didn't make itself known to me until about

a year ago when I wrote the first words of my manuscript

down. Okay, actually it was the last words because I wrote

the ending first then back tracked and started from the

beginning.

From that moment I was addicted. It wasn't an immediate

passion that made itself known, but a slow growing fire that

always kept me warm and provided the random bursts of

sparks that fed my writing and my soul. I would get home

late from work around 11pm and sit at my computer writing

until 3am, then get up at 8am to get my son to school.

I didn't feel tired during the day. Instead, I was wound up

and energized. I couldn't wait to get back to the world I was

creating and say hello to my characters that I was falling in

love with. And about half way through the novel Passion

took over every cell in my body and I finally for the first time

in my life understood what other people were talking about.

So think about your passion on a daily basis.

Look for that thing that makes you feel like you have

been over loaded with adrenaline and can't sit still. That

thing that makes you smile even when no one else

is looking. If you haven't found it,trust me...it's out there.

It took me 39 years to find it.

Pages written today: 1

The daily update: Rejections: 5

Queries still out there: 6

An agent who requested to see more: 1

Although the new 'Interested agent' part is there don't

get excited for me yet. That's what happened on my

first round of queries out. That "Psych" moment I

talked about in a previous post. No need to get jiggy

with it til the next call for the whole manuscript comes.